Lost out of words I do not believe in Xmas

In the middle of darkness the rays of blue light pierced my eyes.
And in the middle of darkness death was one with life for they are...
In the middle of nowhere
For we were in the middle of nowhere at the end ain't we?
And everywhere at the same time.
Magic it can be
Or perhaps magic is not involved at all
Words no to the silence
And words are not enough.
And time is not enough,
Lost away of me.
Lost in the lands of you
Never wanting to return
Always failing to express the point.
Such is the weakness of my letters
Such is the bless within the ignorance
A riddle easy to solve
A moment hard to forget
Lost out of words

And in the middle of the night my head was about to explode
Full of pain for the distance...
Full of me but not of you
Lost out of words.

Lost out of words to describe you
And to tell you about al those things floating around
Those things you do not see hence you do not believe in

And you know I do not believe in Xmas
But I believe in you instead
And I believe in fairies and in armies of wooden elven bows.

Lost out of words to describe us.
But tryng nonetheless
Trying till kingdom come

lost out of words to tell you
I do believe in us.

Do you?
Do you?
Hope you can tell me you do.

Hope you can make my day with those words.

For I do not believe in Xmas
But I can believe in the best gift eva brought to us by order of Sta the Claus.

And war will attack these lands always
My lands full of the war that never ends for I care for others
(And a lil of pryde and evil those others can have)
But war in my land means by no means war in the Oz (Us) land

Hope you are already there making me some company
If not then I'll cross the yellow brick road to get you.

I probably found some words.

to tell how I found some stuff

That I didn't knew for Layla Miller I'm not.

To believe in something in Xmas

But not in Xmas itself...