This Ending.

I do not know if it was because of the happyness.
And my own undeserved happyness
Or rather that feeling of uncompleted quest
That keeps rounding in my mind.
The moment I do walk away
And the image of explicit sex.
It comes and mixes up
With the very first smile of a guy no longer around.
The ending of this tale, but I am still on it.

And now the sounds make no sense
And the lights are out.
When the play is over
Still I am above the stage

And I am looking for the sun that is not there
And taking the guilt of being myself

Is it that hard to describe?
Or the hard part is to understand?

I did not see the whole of five years coming in front of my eyes slowly
Even when the cues did appeared.
And the guy of my old 2nd semester class in 4th sometimes friendly and sometimes unknown
The first teacher that ever made sense of something to me (in 5th)
The friends I made in 6th.
The place that stood for 7th in the middle of imperial sounds
And the great group I never ever belonged to of 8th
But even when all of these things in front of my eyes I did not see all of that.
I saw but the very day, that very afternoon unfolding.

Found someone who disliked the party, a memory of what I used to say
And felt myself lost and broken in the middle or near to it.

If the question is who am I now?
In this moment when I am one of the few performers left.
Or the feeling is that I am not the Jedi that I should be.

I let go of the old, to try to embrace something different.
In that very way I deflected my village.

This ending is not my ending, and I think this is the happy Good ending.
I took the actions to prevent this good ending in my game.

Which is my ending? When and where?
It needs to be soon, but I rather...
I do not do enough things to force it.

Who am I now?
You cannot touch cause I proably bring you down.

But actually the only one I've brought down is myself.
That is.

This ending is not yet my ending, and for a happy ending I would need to restart the whole level somewhere else.